I find joy in releasing the reigns to my God who is able to do 'immeasurably more than I could ever hope or imagine' HE is better! His ideas are better, His plans are better than any I could imagine on my own. He is my source for life and godliness and my only hope for security and acceptance.
He's been showing me who He is as a Father and Protector. I found myself praising Him for a difficult circumstance in my life, offering it up to Him as it is totally baffling to me of how to handle it. He quickly responded to my heart:
Don't worry about this my precious daughter. You are more valuable to me than you know. I will take care of your situation and you can just rest. Just rest and know that I love you and care deeply for you. You don't have to have all the answers, the why's, the how's because I have them in my hands. I see the big picture. Just trust me.
I was so humbled in that moment. How long have I been trying to control, looking for ways to fix, to make others happy when Father just wanted me to yield to Him?! It's so simple yet he allows circumstances to break us and to show us our deficiency in the midst of His sufficiency. Father is soo trustworthy and in that moment it was like my perspective totally changes, my mood changes, my emotions line up with the truth (even though I still felt a little hurt HE was faithful to lift me out of despair) and I was able to know that i know that i know that He spoke this to me. That's all I need.
As usual, a song came on the i-pod that rang to true by switchfoot:
And I lay my head back down
And I close my eyes and pray
To be only Yours
I pray
To be only Yours
I know that You're my ONLY Hope...
Only His... how incredible is that?! How PERSONAL is that?! It has been amazing to be here in Charlotte and not really have anyone to talk to so that He could bring me to know HIM. Intimately. Our relationship is so personal and I feel like the only girl in the universe that He's crazy about! Nothing shall separate me from His love. NOTHING shall separate me from Him. And I sensed that I am His one and only and we are in this adventure of life together. Whatever goes on around us only brings us closer together. We are inseperable. We are ONE! And He is so worthy of my trust: my only hope. One thing will never change and that is Him.
Thank you Lord that you are the consistent companion of my life. I am so honored to be only Yours- body soul and spirit and deep in my heart of hearts.
Love, Your precious Daughter
