Somebody here is hurting
Somebody here is broken
Somebody here is waiting
Somebody here is hoping...
for Love to Come unlock every door
It takes You {in} me to open up once more
And learn to trust again
Somebody here is searching
Somebody's dreams were stolen
Somebody's arms are reaching
Somebody need to hold them...
for Love to come unlock every door
It takes You {in} me to open up Once more
And learn to trust again
I dont know where you come from
I dont know where you're going
I only know the healing
Starts when we all stop running...
(ok i confess i changed one little word on there but that's what it sounds like and that's how i sing it... it's technically and instead of in but that is unbiblical if this song is talking about Jesus. I can't do anything. He does everything... it's not up to me! Then again I do have the power of the will to trust him, but use your own discernment from the Lord)
So do you know that GOD IS love!? He is the Love that comes and unlocks every door of our soul (search me, know me Lord! i trust you to bring up what YOU wanna bring up!) so that we can trust him again... and again... and again... and... for the rest of our lives! Let him open you up so that you may receive healing and salvation(wholeness) from Him. He gave us a free will... we can choose not to, but I can testify to His faithfulness and that He is trustworthy! When we allow Him to perform some surgery on us, bring up old hurts, bring out old lies that we could not do apart from him, it takes trust. Many of us have been hurt or broken or simply confused- What does God say about that situation? TRUST HIM! He 'forms the heart of us all' Ps.33:15 and it is 'him who is able to keep you from falling' jude 24, he is your strong deliverer ps.140:7 and much more. he is exactly what you need in every situation.
One thing about our concept of God is that we often put on the glasses of our circumstances to look at God. Then we believe he is angry at us, or witholding something from us, or he is distant or authoritative. Are these not all lies??!! Especially as believers, God has NO wrath towards us because Jesus paid that price long ago.
LOOK at your circumstances through the lens of a good, loving, all-knowing and ultimately SOVEREIGN (in control) God! He loves you as His child. He knows what is best and wants to give you that (think about the father in the prodigal son story... gave all he had and celebrated his son, just as if he had never sinned). How do you see God?
I am having so much trouble understanding how loving and intimate He truly is. And then I look back over my week and see how he has answered my questions specifically, how he has given me peace, and how he has allowed me to come to the end of myself that He might minister to me, and there is sooo much more to come! I am so excited about resting this weekend and really hearing his voice. Asking him simple questions like how do you love me? how doyou see me?
you see, i have seen God often as a nice teacher. I thought that his purposes are to teach me stuff (because i often identify myself as a 'student') but today i got the awesome opportunity to renounce that lie. He is all about LOVE. Read 1 cor 13 to see what love is... and how God fills all those Characteristics. He is all about relationship. He is all about REST! conflict and frustration are of the flesh but rest is of God! When I know that I am loved, when i swallow my pride and actually receive it and believe it then i am free. Free to fail, free to look stupid, free to be who I really am because i am so secure in Him. I see all my circumstances as from God, knowing that they may not make sense but He sees the big picture so i stand on His sovereignty.
It's easy to say that i know all these things. I know many of them in my head. Now, as shaky times come and go i need to learn to trust. Do i really believe God is who he says he is and can do what he says he can do? A lot of times I do not. I dont believe he wants intimacy with me, i dont believe he loves me, i dont believe he's trustworthy, but that's where he comes in:
He asks me to totally surrender my unbelief up and out to him and receive what is true about him. He is obviously doing what it takes in my own life to teach me this but only for the sake of loving me. HIS PURPOSE is to know Him, and the more i know him the more I learn to trust. daily, hourly, minute-ly. you get the picture. it's an ongoing dialogue but i am pumped about participating in this divine intimacy with my father.
